It’s now that inside I still feel disconnected, I know I want to be here but I want to be with her. To lie in bed with my love to lay beside her quietly pondering the universe as my fingers run slowly down her spine. I see how vast everything is around me but all I can fathom is the moment when I hear her breathing softy in her sleep, she rolls over and lays her head on my chest and I am awe struck. Because every part of me is screaming at me every fiber is aching with pain, because the moment will be shattered with me leaving. I want to turn to lead, I want her body and arms that are wrapped around me to ensnare me like vines that will never release me. It is now that my mind is quiet, when she is laying on me and I can say the three words. The most overused words in history and in human vocabulary. They are the only words that can sum this up though. I speak them they are meant to be spoken only to her in this magnitude for they are lost amongst the ears of others “I love you”. It is the truth it is not my mind speaking these words, my mind betrays me. It is my heart the one thing I choose to run from the most but no not this time my heart must use my tongue to speak. I love you darling every part of you every inch all of your being. I love you now I will love you then I will love you always. My heart aches with the pain of this love, I feel so cheesy and lame but my soul is at peace loving you it needs nothing else but this. All I want is love honest love I know I have it.